infinite spectrum of sadness

Today, I am grateful for my sorrow.  To move forward fearlessly, we must face our fears, and feel our pain.  It's hard as fuck.  Like a seed, we must break through the soil and find the sun.  Through the darkness comes the light as we bloom into the wild flowers we are, our hearts blossom.  

I am learning how to ask myself why when observing my emotions.  It took me a while to identify my emotions, naming anger or sadness or joy was really hard for me.  Now, that I am able to call the feel what it is, I am asking myself why which is helping me understand the past experience that was activated by a present moment. 

I accomplished not losing my shit when day two back from vacation work took a hard left when I was expecting to turn right. Lesson = release expectation. 

I delighted in aqua aerobics, in a beer after a long day, and in receiving a friend's "GLAD" list (gratitude, learning, accomplishment, and delight.)